Numb to the Numbers

by Synthetic Division

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Numb to the Numbers celebrates 25-years of survival for Shawn Decker, who was diagnosed with HIV at age 11 in 1987. His days were thought to be numbered, but the future is as bright as the neon sign that accompanies Synthetic Division wherever they play.

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released 05 July 2012

All songs by Synthetic Division (Shawn Decker, Josh D'Elia and Alan Siegler) except:
"Close to Me" written by Robert Smith/The Cure
"I Victory Crouch You" by Shawn Decker and Micah Consylman
"Which Ornament is Your Favorite?" by Shawn Decker and Evelyn Hoffman
Programming on "Verily", "Plainer to See" and "Close to Me" by Alan Siegler
Album artwork by Josh D'Elia

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Synthetic Division Charlottesville, Virginia

Based out of Charlottesville, Synthetic Division creates a soothing style of electronic music that is inspired by the darker sounds of 80's electropop groups such as New Order, Depeche Mode and Duran Duran. Synthetic Division is comprised of Shawn Decker on vocals and Josh D'Elia on keyboards. ... more

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Track Name: The Essence of Pain (E.Z.F.C. Mix)
you never once cried
not on the outside

i'm not a soldier I'm sick of fighting myself
looking much older not quite the picture of health
i never once cried, not on the outside
no use for white flags, I've not the strength left to wave

don't like the answers, won't ask the questions they bring
there's no advantage in fighting to live til Spring
you never once cried, not on the outside
that is the essence of pain

i'm not a soldier
looking much older

i never once cried
not on the outside
please don't make me go on

this is the essence of pain
Track Name: Stay Awake My Precious Child
you won't find your place
searching with a guilty look
so misplaced is gathered rage
an anger that's misunderstood
sadness goes around
stays until it's been replaced

i hold hope, you've let yours slide
it's easy, here is your plan

stay awake
stay awake
stay awake my precious child

some may act their age
some may turn the other page
some may crack another's book
some will earn another look

i know where you want to hide
just reach out
help is at hand

i hold hope, you let yours slide
it's easy here is your plan

stay awake
stay awake
stay awake my precious child
Track Name: Eternity Awaits Us
we will get beyond, beyond these trying times
together
we will live beyond, beyond these lowly lives
forever

eternity awaits
eternity awaits us

and if your soul's defined by a heart that's kind
you won't have to wait
and if your soul's been kind when it comes your time
you won't have to wait
and if i'm not on time or my soul's declined
i might have to wait
save me a place

we will live beyond, beyond these lowly lives
forever

and if i'm twice denied and reborn to life
i'll limit my mistakes
and if my soul's refined with a heart that's kind
i will end my wait
save me a place

i won't be lost
i won't be long

eternity awaits us
Track Name: Plainer to See
why shouldn't i fear what has been taken from me?
why shouldn't i fear the world now?
it's plainer to see

so that's my heart's that broken
that's just the truth i'm choking down

shouldn't i fear what has been taken from me?
shouldn't i fear the world now?
it's plainer to see

no one knows what goes through my mind
and knowing this is fine
no one

shouldn't i fear what has been taken from me?
shouldn't i fear the world now?
it's plainer to see
shouldn't i fear what has been taken from me?

slowly i'll grow somehow
Track Name: It's Too Soon to Lose It All
too soon, too soon
it's too soon

i try to pick up my slack, did i cover my tracks?
guess it was a setback, just what is holding me back?
i was so tempted to see, that was not really me
forgiveness unlike the deed does not come quite so easy
just what is holding me back?

i've scratched and i've peeled at scars
could not recover from harm
i should never do that
flesh feels much better intact

it's too soon to lose it all

once i wished on a star
that was me just living in a fantasy

i try to pick up my slack, did i cover my tracks?
guess it was a setback, just what is holding me back?

it's too soon to lose it all
Track Name: Close to Me
I've waited hours for this,
I've made myself so sick.
I wish I'd stayed asleep today,
I never thought this day would end.
I never thought tonight could ever be
This close to me

Just try to see in the dark,
Just try to make it work,
To feel the fear before you're here.
I make the shapes come much too close,
I pull my eyes out,
Hold my breath,
And wait until I shake

But if I had your faith,
Then I could make it safe and clean.
If only I was sure,
That my head on the door was a dream.

I've waited hours for this,
I've made myself so sick,
I wish I'd stayed asleep today.
I never thought this day would end,
I never thought tonight could ever be
This close to me

But if I had your face,
I could make it safe and clean.
If only I was sure,
That my head on the door,
Was a dream.
Track Name: Don't Want to See Your Friends
just show who you are, you get further each day
just show who you are
i think i know who you are, gets sadder each day
just show who you are

keeping a straight face
walking a brisk pace
smiling in vain again
don't want to see your friends

show who you are

just show who you are, gets colder each day
just show who you are

keeping a brave face
staying in safe places
hiding away again
don't want to see your friends
Track Name: One Night's Luck
just cried the tears have dried themselves
won't place the blame on someone else
oh well i never seem to know
the ways to make these feelings go

tore down the lies too tall to tell
won't play that game with your good health
oh well i never, never seem to know
the worlds that help these lives to glow

you know what we started from
just one night's luck
that was enough to set us up
you know what we started from
just one light touch
that set us off

let's hide the years can age themselves
don't change the same suits us so well
oh well one never seems to know
the time when time must let us go

you know what we started from
just one night's luck
Track Name: I Choose to Ignore This
i choose to ignore this

faster than the wind the truth it sets right in
racing from the bone-deep chills they're coming quick
passing by a friend who's grin is as wide as a fence
i can feel the bone-deep chills that never end

yes, i see it i know it
i choose to ignore this

faster than the wind the truth it blew right in
can you feel the bone-deep chills that came too quick?

i choose to ignore this
as long as i can

yes, i see it
yes, i know it
yet
i choose to ignore this
i see it, i know it

i choose to ignore this
hit snooze sleep through this
as long as i can
Track Name: I've Interrupted Your Dream
in your deepest peace, when you're fast asleep
i'll join you for a walk through the fields
your subconscious plea isn't lost on me
i'll join you for a walk through the fields

i've interrupted your dream
guess that's all for now
i'll fade into the distance

guess that's all for now
i'll fade into the distance
you offered no resistance

in your deepest peace, when you're fast asleep
i'll join you for a walk through the fields

i've interrupted your dream

guess that's all for now

you offered no resistance
i'll fade into the distance
Track Name: I Victory Crouch You
I victory crouch you

I shoot, you shoot, I shoot
I shoot, you shoot, I hit
I shoot, you shoot, I shoot, you shoot too
I shoot, you shoot, I hit, you miss

I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH YOU
I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH
I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH YOU
I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH
I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH YOU
I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH

I shoot, you shoot, I shoot
I hit, you lose, I win!

I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH YOU
I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH
I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH YOU
I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH
I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH YOU
I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH
I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH YOU
I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH

I victory crouch you (majestic)

I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH YOU
I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH
I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH YOU
I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH
I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH YOU
I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH
I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH YOU
I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH

I VIC-VICTORY
I VIC-VICTORY VICTORY CROUCH
Track Name: Synthetic Division and Evelyn Hoffman - Which Ornament Is Your Favorite? (Featuring Evelyn Hoffman)
which ornament is your favorite?
tell me which one
it's just fun to pick out which one

which ornament is your favorite?

just be singing into this song
just be singing into the light
just be singing
which ornament is your favorite?

and celebrate new lights
oh happy Christmas
it's nice to hear
it's our Thanksgiving

which ornament is your favorite?
it's just not the ones who say
"goodbye to you"